Hello you salaciously dirty boys and girls. Thank you for joining the lovely Nicki White and myself this evening as we sit down and shoot the breeze as we enjoy this fine bottle of Frédéric Magnien Bourgogne Pinot Noir.
*Kristina holds up her glass and toasts Nicki
Kristina: So, tell me, what are you working on these days?
Nicki takes a sip and grins with delight. “Fabulous,” she says as she relaxes a bit in her chair. “Well, currently I’m writing Raven’s Undoing, which is the next book after Raven’s Innocence. Although, it’s been tough writing this one. My muse hasn’t been talking to me very much.” Nicki rolls her eyes sarcastically. “Before, I couldn’t get her to shut up.” They both laugh. “What about you? What do you have in the making right now?”
Kristina winks and lets a mouthful slide down her throat before answering. “My muse has been a bitch, playing hard to get. She even will visit for a brief moment to tease me before running off into the night, laughing hysterically.” refills her glass and offers to top off Nicki’s. “I am desperately trying to finish the last few chapters of part 3 in my series, I just can’t seem to focus. In part, it is mostly due to stress of being sans editor at the moment with a looming deadline.” *Rolls eyes and huffs. “Tell me, what do you do when your muse is being difficult?”
Nicki welcomes the extra wine into her glass. “Well, it depends. Honestly, my writing is fueled by emotion. Sometimes if I’m at a complete loss for words, I’ll dig deep down inside to try and figure out exactly what is bothering me most. Then I open up a word document and I spit it out on paper, usually in the form of a poem. It’s a release for me. It’s like my muse is able to break through that wall and breathe again.” Nicki pauses for moment and takes another sip of wine. “So you’re working on your series, who is your favorite character?”
Kristina: “My favorite character depends on which book we are in, I love Etienne in part 1, Sasha is a spitfire as well, but come part 2, we love to hate Sasha as she is going through a dark time and doesn’t deal with the grieving process as well as some might like. We feel for Etienne at this time and really bond with some of the side characters, getting an in-depth feel for the background surrounding the two leads. In part 3, I/we begin to love Sasha as she finally evolves into a character worth getting attached to as she claims our hearts.” *goes for some chocolates spotted next to the wine. “Tell me about Raven’s Undoing and the development of your series?”
“Pass that chocolate!” Nicki’s eyes light up. Chocolate is almost better than sex. Almost… “Well, where to start…. I always wanted to write a novel. I’ve had a lot of inspiration and another author was very encouraging and asked me one day, what do you have to lose? Just start writing. I had an idea, and went with it. I love Romance and I love Psychology, so I wanted to combine the two and come up with more of a Romance Thriller/Suspense type novel. Raven’s Undoing is part two. This is the book where you find out everything! The first one has an ending that will leave you gasping. Raven’s Undoing wraps it all up. I have very little patience myself, so I wanted to finish the story in two books.” Nicki pauses, contemplating what to say next. “In Raven’s Innocence, Raven has moved to a new city with her best friend to start her life over. She’s very introverted, yet also a spitfire. Of course she meets this, and falls head over heals, except something is very wrong with the whole situation. At first her new man seems perfect, and then all hell breaks loose. It’s a very emotional book.” Nicki bites into a piece of chocolate and savors the flavor. Yum. “So tell me, where do you come up with the names for your characters? They’re very unique. I like them!”
Kristina contemplates while sipping on her wine and allowing the chocolate pairing to explode over her tongue. “I love etiology and not everything is face value in my books, names too have a meaningful tie to the overall snapshot of the story I am delivering. Sasha’s name in a roundabout fashion means “Defender of People,” which is her evolving role and Etienne’s name… well I will stop there. But I will tell you as one who also appreciates psychology I like to play around with it myself, Etienne is a version of Steven and Sasha’s husband’s name is Stephan, so her choice is mirrored in the reflection of two men, grass could be greener, could all be a ploy, or a farce of her subconscious.” “Tell me, how thrilling do things get for your Raven?” *waggles eyebrows at Nicki.
Nicki blushes an intense shade of Crimson as her jaw drops. She can write about the unmentionables, but she can’t talk about it. Not without getting all embarrassed and choked up. She is gawking at Kristina frantically trying to think of what to say. Finally she clears her throat. “Well…..” She pauses and shifts a little in her chair. Clearly uncomfortable. She is wishing she could have something stronger now to drink. Straight Vodka might do the trick. “Well,” she begins again. “Raven is very reserved and Grant completely takes her by surprise the first time they….. well, you know.” Nicki’s face turns even redder as her eyes start darting around the room. “Let’s just say, she is not disappointed by Grant’s performance.” Without looking directly at Kristina, Nicki asks, “Is there…ya know….sex in your books?” She whispers ‘sex’ like it’s totally taboo and slinks down just a little in her chair.
Kristina puffs her chest and smirks, Nicki’s endearing shyness encouraging her devious edge. “Is there sex…” Kristina drags out the syllables, over enunciating for effect. “In part 1, I allude to it, ramp up for it and tease the hell out of the reader making them beg for it in the end. In part 2, the pair finally have an emotional and sexually charged reunion that ends up being the tip of the iceberg as they attempt to fulfill years of suppressed desires. Part 3… exploring sexual dominance becomes an underlying theme as the couple use it to rebuild trust and communication in the aftermath of Sasha’s traumatic experience. You see, Nicki, one should never be ashamed of sex or fucking for that matter as it is a beautiful form of self expression that truly enhances one’s life.” Kristina plucks a strawberry garnishment from the chocolate tray and pops it in her mouth, playing on the uncomfortable edge palpating from her shy counterpart. “Where do you draw inspiration for your kinky scenes?”
Nicki is rendered speechless by Kristina’s direct and explicit use of words. However, this also helps Nicki feel a little more relaxed, as odd as it may sound, because very few people really know that deep down inside, Nicki can be quite kinky and the shy reserved girl you see on the outside…. well, let’s just say that things aren’t always as they appear. “Okay, then. Honestly?” Nicki pauses and wonders if she’s ready to blurt this out loud. Hell, why not? Taking one more big gulp of liquid courage….“The inspiration I have for my kinky scenes comes from my own fantasies and the desire to have a man take total control of me. A man who can handle me, please me, grab my ass, spank it, and then send me straight. over. the. edge.” Nicki’s face reddens again in reaction to her own admission. She doesn’t say these things out loud. Ever. Too late now. She straightens in her chair with a new sense of heightened self-esteem. It felt good to say that out loud. “What about you? What inspires your kinky scenes?”
Kristina grins proudly at Nicki for her admission. Nibbling another chocolate and chasing it with some more vined juice from the gods, she clears her throat thoughtfully. “Hmmm, great questions. Many things inspire my scenes, where to begin… First off, I watch too many documentaries as well as read and research many aspects of sexuality, the psychology behind it and how it is practiced. From there, it doesn’t take much for this crazy imagination to run wild. My scenes draw a little from everything I learn and see. I also like to touch on aspects of sexuality that inspire women such as yourself to be bold enough to ask for what they want from their partners. Everyone deserves a partner that can handle them and give them what they need, but we have to be bold enough to stand up and communicate that. The new blog pieces I have been writing evolve around that theme. Helping women to overcome whatever roadblocks they need to in order to grab their sexuality by the leather straps and demand what they want or need. As much as we wish, our partners will never be able to read our minds. And yes, I do practice what I preach.” Kristina winks at Nicki as she drops the last line then quickly jumps off her soapbox. “Do you feel you hold back in your writing at all when it comes to writing your sex scenes or is that when you feel the safest to run free?”
Nicki contemplates that question for a few moments because this is the first time she has been asked this, and she herself, isn’t so sure. “Well, I do feel like in my writing, I am safest to run free for sure; however, I do hold back. I try not to, but it just happens. I didn’t even realize I was holding back until I let another author, who is also a very good friend of mine read my sex scenes. He’s a pro at writing them himself and does an amazing job. Anyways, after he read what I wrote, he told me that he felt like I was slightly holding back. He could tell I was uncomfortable writing it and wasn’t being true to myself. I rewrote a couple of those sex scenes quite a few times. He ultimately, rewrote them as well. I admit, when he was done and sent them back to me, he nailed it.” Nicki sits there for a moment in silence. She maybe has had an epiphany. She lives through her writing. She craves to be true, what she has wrote on paper. But she’ll never admit that out loud. She looks up at Kristina and admires her boldness and wishes she had that level of confidence; maybe some day. And note to self, read Kristina’s blog.
Nicki gulps down the last of what is in her glass. “Do you think Romance will always be your choice of writing?”
“Good question. What also makes it an interesting one is that for most of my life I gravitated toward historical fiction, mystery and thriller type novels that make you sit back and go ‘oh.my.god.’ Romance is a niche that I fell into as it was the most comfortable for me to write, and the pleasure I get from doing so is amazing. I have some childrens books in mind that I hope to do some day, under a pen name of course, and I hope one day to break into the contemporary field with an smart read that moves the soul as well as a mystery one day. Who knows! What about you? What aspirations do you have as a writer?” Kristina eases back in her chair comfortably, waiting on edge for Nicki to answer as she herself loves to talk about goals with people.
Nicki lightly taps her chin with the tip of her finger, another question she has not really given much thought to until now. “I have always written poetry, and always wanted to write a novel. It hasn’t been until this past year that I have become so serious in my writing. Honestly, the more I do it, the more I love it. I wish that I could quit my job and write full time. Novels, poetry, short stories, anything and everything. I love writing. Poetry and novels are my most favorite of course. Every poem I write is inspired by something I’m experiencing. It’s driven by emotion. In fact, in my novel, my most passionate and gut wrenching scenes, were written when I was experiencing a major emotional upheaval in my life. Writing is my outlet. I’m hoping the opportunity eventually presents itself where I can focus on that full time. I’ve never been more passionate about anything in my entire life, like I am about writing.” Nicki smiles at yet another honest admission. “Shall we pour another glass and keep going?” She relaxes back in her chair feeling some relief.
Kristina: “I too feel the same sense of passion and encompassing love when channeling my thoughts, fears, experiences and emotions through writing. I once read a quote that said, ‘The difference between a writer and someone who wants to write is a writer HAS to write.’ So true. Well, Nicki, I think we should pour another glass for ourselves and let these fine people get back to their busy lives. Thank you again!”
Nicki: “That quote is such a powerful truth!” Nicki smiles and raises her glass for Kristina for fill it back up. “It has been a pleasure, and a lot of fun.” She winks. “And Thank You as well.”